Continuing with my unintentional theme for the month of songs that sort of fit with my current WIP. I haven’t been writing on it, not from choice though. The closer I get to the surgery, the more I find other things I need to do. I spent the entire weekend buying furniture, or moving furniture, or watching my adorablez nephew, or reading. I’ve been reading a lot lately.
Mostly because Gyda isn’t ready for the next scene of her book. There’s some dark stuff coming up, some stuff that’s going to be hard for me to write and I’ve been gearing myself up for that. And I think it’s almost time. I need to get most of her story written before the surgery puts me out of commission. She knows this. She’s just being stubborn.
And I’m reminded of Gyda every time I hear this song. I’ve mentioned the Black Veil Brides before. I really love their music. I guess because it almost reminds me of old school metal. And if you watch the video, you might see shades of Mötley Crüe, a little Adam Ant (who was so not metal, but you’ll see what I mean) and even KISS. Then, the video itself has all sorts of Mad Max connotations which is cool, but none of that has as much of an impact as the song itself.
Because “in the end, as you fade into the night…who will tell the story of your life and who will remember your last goodbye” speaks to Gyda. Her darkness is a constant battle fought between the girl she was and the woman she’s become. It would be easy to end things, to slip away quietly, but there’s still a spark of rebellion, an almost animalistic need to survive. But it’s more than that. Giving in, giving into the darkness means her tormenters win. Fighting and leaving her mark on the world is the best revenge she could ever take.
And that’s what this song reminds me of. Gyda’s resilience. No matter what happens to her, no matter what obstacles I throw in her way, she’ll overcome them. I’ll probably cry when I get to that part of the story, but it’ll be worth it. Oh so worth it.